Still “DontGetIt”

“What’s understood, ain’t gotta be explained.

But you don’t understand me, so let me explain!”

Whew! That’s the Lil Wayne, I miss! I heard glimpse of it on FWA, but it wasn’t on the level of this track. I’m a sucker for a soulful sample and this Nina Simone’ sample hits directly to my heart! I didn’t understand back in 2008 when it came out, but now I completely get it. Life had to hit me close to home to understand and now I’m the one misunderstood!

See, I have to explain myself to most people just because I see the same life differently. I’m from the hood, but live in the suburbs. That is just the outside environment though. I moved out the hood when I was 12, but had an ignorant mentality up until I was 25. It doesn’t matter which side of the city you live, it is about the thoughts and emotions you allow in your mind to control your body.

I didn’t get it from looking at the environment around me, I had to look inside of me to figure it out. I saw both sides, and people act the same. They see what is going on outside and in the media and follow trend. Will do anything to fit in and survive, even if it hurts someone else to do so. Not realizing that, in the big picture of life, we are all just humans and are the same.

Living life being conscious of that is the hardest thing to do. There aren’t many that understand that, or even want to. So, I have to keep myself centered and focus on the good things of life, because everyone else wants me to have their mindset. I lost contact with many friends and family members because I changed my mindset to a positive one. I still love all and have no hard feelings because I understand them, they just don’t understand me.

“Baby, you understand me now.

If sometimes, you see that I’m mad.

Don’t you know, no one alive can always be an angel?

When everything goes wrong, you see some bad.

But I’m just a soul, whose intentions are good.

Oh Lord, please don’t let me be misunderstood”

Generation Balance

Everything evolves, it is apart of our nature. Part of our job is to become aware of the evolution and help bridge the gap for others. I just got it! Many people know the knowledge but do not apply it into their lives. The action is the most important part!

It took me to educate myself and learn how the body works and the environment around it. From those observations, it answered a lot of questions I had in my mind that would always keep me from seeing the truth about life.

I have spoke with many people from many generations and they agreed with the knowledge and logic. The difference is each person individually has to connect the dots to the physical and mental world. The older generation did not have the resources of today to know the bigger picture. For that reason they have a tough time letting go of their beliefs and trusting someone younger than themselves. The younger generation learns from the older generations. They can become just like the older generation, if they believe the same beliefs. If the beliefs are not based around the known truth for all, then they can cause conflict with others.

Everybody wants to be loved and treated fairly, at the same time enjoy ourselves in this journey called life! Life is the only thing that we know. I always get the question, “How do you know?”
I say, I don’t know anything, but am aware that my senses are common to every other human. Which makes it true. We are all the same spiritually, and I went thru the journey of being ignorant of my true self.

In that journey, I found to look inside myself for answers. When I did find those answers they also opened me up to the true world outside of me. It cleared everything up for me and I fell in love with that feeling. It feels like a love only compared to the love for ones own children. I realized at this point that I was allowing the energy of love to flow freely through my body. Which then made me more aware of the energy in myself and all around us, and trying to balance it.

Knowing what I know and being around others that are unaware drove me to action, which started this blog. I need to spread this knowledge with others. I’m just looking to close the gap and continue building the bridge for all generations!

Love & Peace

Devil to Angel

Education brings awareness of the subject into the mind. If the mind comprehends the information than it goes either into understand and store; or understand and apply, which then turns into experience. If the mind doesn’t understand, the info creates confusion. Confusion has many levels and all are negative. More confusion than understanding and applying creates for a negative mindset, which then evolves into a negative person.

One can live with confusion and not  know it because they are not aware of their thoughts and true self. We are the only species on “Earth” that can become aware of knowledge of ourselves. With this awareness, comes change. There is a physical change and mental change, it depends on what the person is becoming aware of.

The negative mindset, is the so called devil, it creates all the deception in our lives. So it is only right that the positive mindset would be our angel.
Everything we know as humans came from observations from another humans mind. The human mind observe things from our “Earth” and our “Universe”, and tries to make sense of everything we can see and can’t see. Then we record it the best we can.

Finding the truth out of those records can be difficult, but we have to observe for our individual selves what is true also. We have more information on the facts of life because we have those records! We have to take the information from them and our life experiences to see what is true.

Once we try to observe the truth for our own self. We become more aware of ones true self and the connection to our “Universe”; also we can tie it into our  physical body and the connection with our “Earth”!

It is our journey, the only one!  Most are not aware of it which effects everything in our environment. Knowing this journey allows one to become enlightened from the old survival mindset and change it into a servant of the true creator! Changing from a devil to an angel!!!

Love & Peace

Do Not Look Past Earth!

We as a whole, search through out the universe to try and find answers to life. We come to conclusions in our minds that does not have any factual evidence for it. Our minds can break the laws of nature, but only as an illusion. Our physical bodies are still apart of nature, so we have to stay within the laws of that.

I was at a point in my life where I felt stuck, lost in confusion. So I did searching for answers that’s been on my mind for as long I could remember. Now, people that know me know I was never religious or spiritual. I just believed in treating people fairly because I felt we was all the same deep down.

So I had to teach myself about the religions and came to the conclusion that most of them cause even more confusion. They put you against anyone who has a different view. Its so many different views based off of regions and cultures, plus we all have our own minds anyway. So I kept searching, because I felt like there has to be some perception that makes sense for all.

I kept searching outside for truths and it would always have two sides of it because we all individually have a perception, but what about together as one. What’s that perception as a whole, is what I asked myself. So that made me look up the Truths of life.

Of all the research I did about our history, two things stayed consistent. One was the human mind and the other was “Earth”! The most fascinating part was the journey through the mind. That brought back a feeling, I haven’t felt since I was a kid with no fear in mind. I started to balance the energy in my mind and control my thoughts and emotions. That allowed me to open up my body to the energy as well.

Then I thought, is this the “let go, let God” that many talk about. Let go of your thoughts and emotions and let the energy of “God” flow through your body evenly.

That brought me to “God”, the other consistent Truth of our history, “Earth”! Us humans seem to take “Earth” for granted and don’t see it for what it really is to us. We learn so much from the other life forms on “Earth”, but look right past “Earth” for our creation. That might be the biggest lesson of them all. Life forms have to abide by the laws of nature as well and one life form can not create a different form of life.

I am confident that “Earth” is a living life form that created us. We just have to let our minds go and let “Earth” do its thing! Maybe one day, “Earth’s” children will evolve enough to become a world of their own.

Love & Peace

Deadbeat’s Love!

I have no real memories of my dad, I mean I met him but that is about it! It is sad, I have TWO strong memories of my biological father.

One I had to be about Seven or Eight, and its blurry besides the fact that my older brother came along with me. The other memory, I was in college, so I had to be about 18 or 19.

He attempted for about a good month, to keep in contact but I was at the point in life were he was just a complete stranger to me. So in his defense, I did not give him a fair shot. I would not go as far to say I had hatred for him but if I seen him in the street, I would have kept it moving by.

The good thing is that I had two father figures in my life, my step pop and my grandpa. I learned the most from my grandfather though. I lived with him since I was 11 and he showed me everything I needed to survive in this world.

My step dad and I had a great relationship growing up, until I seen the pain he put my mother in during one summer. Our relationship has never been the same since, even with my mother forgiving him. I learned the most about that situation, by a conversation with my grandfather. He put it like it is, “A man is going to be a man. He just got caught.”

The older I get I realize how much that is true until the day I had my kids. My kids brought so much love to my life, it would just sit on my chest. The crazy thing is, I felt that love before they were even born.

So, I promised myself I would be there for my kids everyday. So before they were born, their mother and I tried to plan it out for us to have everything ready for their arrival.

The rough part was that we lived 8 hours away from each other. It was no problem for me though, I figured I would just move up and be with my family. Then I got in some trouble and could not leave the state. From that point on, things between us started to distance.

Pressure on her end was getting too much for her and she did not know how to handle it. Our relationship was nothing but arguments and negativity. I did not want to raise my kids in that environment. I was torn because on one side I had all this love, but on the other hand, I know it hurts them more growing up in a negative environment!

At that point, I can say I thought about my biological father for the first time. I forgave him without even talking to him, because I could see how any man would choose the easy path and just run away. Run from your responsibility and be labeled a deadbeat!

That option never sat well with me because every time I thought of my little boys, my chest just filled up with joy. That joy put me on the spiritual path, I needed to let go my emotions and thoughts and become one with “God”! Now, I know my purpose is to spread the love to my boys and all!!

Love & Peace